What is it like being unplugged from the matrix?

It could be the feeling of being an outsider, an observer.

At home I’m not aware of being an observer because I’m in my personal domain, my “private” habitat, busy taking care of my life, being focused on my work, my relationships, and so actively engaged in my surroundings that I rarely question them.

It’s different when I’m outside. Outside, walking along the familiar streets of my neighborhood, I don’t have to think about where I’m going or how I’m going to get there because I am in well-known territory. If I’m relaxed, not in any hurry and nothing is troubling me, I allow my mind to wander.

And wander, it does. It wanders to pretty much the same place of late. The place in the back of my head on the inside.

This might be because the film The Matrix, which I’ve seen many times, is so ingrained in my consciousness. But lately, the reason I am more aware of being plugged-in / not plugged-in – is because of the you tube video I watched not long ago called, The Holographic Universe. The video, in five parts, explains with great visuals, how it is that this world we live in is really an illusion. Here is a quote:

The external world is inside our brain. Everything we see touch hear and smell as matter in the world or the universe, is only the brain’s interpretation of electrical signals.

This knowledge has been floating around to the general public for decades. I was hearing about the unreality of our world back in the Sixties when we were experimenting with hallucinogens like LSD. In the Eighties in my consciousness-raising group, we accused one another of being “plugged-in” or “attached,” and reminded each other to “let go.” Also in the 1980s I began reading books on quantum mechanics written for non-scientists, and became familiar with terms like “parallel universes.” But for me it was pretty much theoretical, and not something I could apply to my daily life. LSD wasn’t theoretical, but it was too scary after I was told it might change my chromosomes. Then I read the book about the holographic universe by Michael Talbot, and went downtown to the Museum of Holography in Soho, which sadly has closed. Still, pretty much all theory, though fun to speculate on.

So, what has changed? Well for starters, it’s 2012, and the energy has changed, the frequencies have increased, the higher vibrations are more “available,” shall we say. And I see how my ease with visualization, the techniques I’ve been developing since childhood, and a life-long devotion to all art-forms, has enabled me to quickly make the leaps in perception which are so vital in helping me to comprehend where I am and what I am. And how it’s all in my head.

It’s still theoretical, but now I am visualizing it for myself. I’m aware of watching a screen inside my own head. My own personal movie, aka reality. Which is only real insofar as I believe that it is.

I remind myself of this as I mosey along the streets of my neighborhood. I picture the little box in the back of the inside of my head like I saw in the video. This head of mine that is completely dark inside with no light whatsoever filtering in. And yet it is this very head, this dark solid squishy mass of matter nestled inside my skull that I call my brain, which offers me incredibly glorious visions! Also the grievous suffering of so many souls.

But what I think about when I’m walking along, what I remind myself over and over to please remember, is that I am walking in a “made-up” world. And that my real self, my true self, or my soul, resides on another plane. Taking it all in. And guiding me, for as much of the time as I am “unattached” here, and willing to listen.

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oil on canvas by Nancy Wait 2008

When I went through a crisis back in the 70s, I surrendered and had a breakthrough that led to a spiritual awakening, that led to a doorway, that led to the inner world, that led to a voyage of discovery through writing and painting in order to know this inner world through the portal that was now open, that I was led to when I surrendered and had a breakthrough…

And ever since that vision of the doorway, I sought to cross the threshold so beautifully laid out before my eyes. And cross it I did.

I crossed it through my willingness to keep on going, to keep writing and painting my innermost feelings, bringing them to the surface and acknowledging them. I crossed it with my willingness to keep loving, no matter what. And letting go of results.

It sounds so simple. We’ve all heard it countless times. But I don’t think we know what it truly means until we actually do it ourselves.

As with everything else, there are levels of surrender. And practice makes perfect. But the greatest surrender has to be that willingness to just let go. Allowing something else to take over. The Higher Self. The Soul. And saying good-bye to all that we knew, all that we thought of as our “life.” It’s the only way to really have that life – by letting go of the need for it.

It is what living in the Now moment really means.

Channeler Gillain MacBeth-Louthan has this to say about the Doorway, the Trans-portal, in her current Newsletter at Quantum Awakening: http://www.thequantumawakening.com/current%20QUANTUM%20newsletter.htm

You stand at the sacred portal.  Upon this portal is placed a mirror. The key that unlocks the portal is your own reflection.  The key to unlock the reflection is self-love. In your mind’s eye, see this Trans-portal doorway and the mirrored effect of it.  As you look deep into your own reflection, how do you feel?  Is there joy that stands in front of you?  Is there remorse?  Is there distaste?  Is there love?

It is imperative that you do everything that you can to place yourself in a garment of self love, for it is the raft that will take you to a safe harbor. It is a solitary paddling that you embark upon in the misty morning horizon. As with Alice and the Looking Glass, do not be afraid of new dimensions of self and soul as you fall down the inter-dimensional rabbit hole. Look into the mirror that is void of reflection and see all the possibilities. 

 The next phase of momentum takes the form of a Fibonacci spiral moving toward the center nautilus of you.  At that point of inner centeredness you will create a bend in your future light.  At that position of bending, you will be offered an opportunity that comes only when you have initialized the codes of self-love.  Then and only then will you be allowed entrance into the center of the heart of light.  

Within you is a time safe trigger that is waiting on particular dates and number conjunctions to activate.  The doorway is you.  The entrance code is the energetic signature of your love for you. It is not a handprint.  It is not an eye-scan.  It is a heart-print that allows you entrance.  Not the imprint of your love for your neighbor, or your father-in-law, or a parent, but your love for you.  This is how you gain entrance into this doorway of time unseen.

Each of you has called upon a ‘Light’ that will give to you what you seek.  Until you come fully into all of your heart pieces, there will be no peace. You are diversified filaments of holy Light.  You are emancipated octaves of Creation that has expressed itself in all ways. There are no Karmic contracts unless you decide it is so. 

Everyone that you meet has the potential to be in your heart if you decide it is so.  Open up this doorway as you enter the subterranean chambers of the Ancient You.  The portals separate those who will and those who will not.  They separate those who choose to move forward and those who choose to be in stasis.  This choosing is not something decreed by the finger of God, it is something decreed by each individual.  Stop waiting on your lives.  They are here now.

H with Hollyhocks

Continuing with our theme of Bridging Worlds with Creative Imagination, we look at the letter H as the perfect representative of BW with CI. Holistic is from the Greek holos or whole, in reference to the theory that regards nature as consisting of wholes.

I like to look at the H as two vertical lines with a horizontal in between. As in, you, me, and what flows between. What flows between is the bridge of Heart. This is the bridge to Heaven. The bridge Home. Welcome to our first hour-long+ show on March 6, 2012.

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The Angel Bridge - This is a must-see, beautiful video poem by Trinity Bourne of Openhand.

The word ‘holistic’ was only coined as recently as 1926. The modern version of holistic medicine has only been around since 1960. This show only concerns “holistic” in terms of left-brain – right-brain consciousness. (No small matter!)

Participating in A Month of Letters challenge, has brought back not only my love of letter-writing, but my love of actual alphabet letters. All the different shapes and sizes and ways to write them. And meanings to ascribe to them – on purely visual terms.  Holistic, indeed.

One way to bridge worlds is by not only seeing ‘things’ – but the patterns they make, the designs, in space. This is a form of detachment from objects as only ‘objects.’ You might see a suitcase – but I see a rectangle too. Of course you know it’s a rectangle, but you only see a suitcase. A thing is not only what it is, it’s what we see that it is.

When my son was little I fed him shapes. You may have seen a Ritz cracker with a piece of cheese on top, but I told him it was a circle with a square. He loved tofu, so I cut it into triangles. I said, “Would you like to eat a triangle now?” And he said, “Yes!” We had fun.

Bridging worlds is fun too. I like to think of it as bringing a bit of enchantment into everyday life. (But of course it’s much more than that too…)