What was particularly interesting to me this time, (the information Carol has been giving on blog talk radio and now you tube is cumulative) was when she explained how it works. How it’s the healing that proves the story.
This resonated with me deeply, as since childhood my life has been marred or marked (there is always a choice in perception) by a disturbing past life memory of violent death. Finally, (finally!) at the age of fifty I had reason to believe I actually learned the circumstances, as well as the name and age of the girl whose experience I seemed to be remembering in dreams and later in paintings. Suddenly things began to fall into place.
This was back in 2001 when I was in the process of writing a memoir, and though it now made utter and complete sense of my story, I hesitated to proclaim this new knowledge of a soul connection. I mean, I had no proof, did I. I had no memories of the girl’s life or where she lived. All I had was a scalding memory of death.
During the next ten years of writing, I tried the book both with and without the presence of this soul memory, and found my story only made sense when I included the memory. And because it was this recognition of a soul memory that solved the mystery of my experience, I subtitled the book, The Memoir That Solved A Mystery.
Nevertheless, when I published The Nancy Who Drew (2011) I did feel I was going out on a limb.
But not any more.
Aside from getting used to the idea over time, I have been listening regularly to Paranormal Matters and finding that my memories are not so unusual after all. It didn’t matter to me that a huge percentage of the global population believes in reincarnation; what has seemed to require courage has been making it personal, with names and dates.
“It’s the healing that proves the story; an exchange of energy occurs in the process, but there has to be a letting go.”
And now, what has made the difference is hearing Carol Lamb tell a story in her recent interview about the healing that occurs in recognizing past life memories. She speaks of the process of recognition, and how there is an energy exchange. What she calls “An alchemical change in energy.” She adds, perhaps most importantly, “But there also has to be a letting go in order for this to occur.”
So now I ask myself, was I healed by the memory? Was there an energy exchange? Did I let go?
Well, let us say it’s a process. Because I am currently engrossed in the sequel which deals with painting my inner life. And through the art of writing, which involves knowing consciously what my subconscious and my dreams knew all along, I have of necessity kept the past alive in my emotional body in order to share the story with others.
Writing and painting, when they delve into deeper layers of truth within, also cause “an alchemical change in energy.”
There’s a tremendous amount of trust that goes in to undertaking a soul journey. If and when you recognize (or think you might be recognizing) a feeling or an experience from a past life but are not sure whether to trust or believe it, the answer will be in the healing of your experience, as Carol tells us.
And what I have been learning through the course of my sojourn, is how art, and now writing, are ways to know myself, and to know what I know. Creating these pictures and writings have been ways of putting the story and the feelings outside myself. This, and the sharing of the work, are the ways I continue to let go…